Mockingbird

Yeah
I know sometimes
Things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey
What'd Daddy always tell you?
Straighten up, little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you cryin' about?
You got me

Hailie, I know you miss your mom
And I know you miss your dad when I'm gone
But I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile
Even when you laugh, I can see it in your eyes
Deep inside you wanna cry, cuz you're scared
I ain't there? Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney, uncle's crazy ain't he?
Yeah but he loves you girl, and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Looking puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move
Mama's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up as Daddy, Daddy had to see
Daddy don't want you to see
But you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over
And that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up, little lady
I told ya, Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know Mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise, Mama's gonna be alright

Heh, it's funny
I remember back one year when Daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree
And said some of 'em were from me
Cuz Daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas, I sat up the whole night cryin'
Cuz Daddy felt like a bum, see Daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table
For you and Mom
And at the time, every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block
And your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Trying to start a piggy bank for you
So you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars
Until someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad, it broke your mama's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and Dad was arguing a lot
So Mama moved back on the Chalmers
In a flat one-bedroom apartment
And Dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when Daddy went to California with his CD
And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me
But Daddy had to work, you and Mama had to leave me
Then you started seein' Daddy on the TV
And Mama didn't like it
And you and Laney were too young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, Mama developed a habit
And it all happened to fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it firsthand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin' in this empty house
Just reminiscin', lookin' at your baby pictures
And it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown
It's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are
And Daddy's still here
Laney, I'm talking to you too, Daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it, don't it?
Shh, Mama's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me to, Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'ma give you the world
I'ma buy a diamond ring for you, I'ma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'ma break that birdie's neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every karat, don't fuck with Dad

Hailie's Song

Yo
I can't sing
But I feel like singin'
I wanna fuckin' sing
Cuz I'm happy
Yeah, I'm happy
Haha
I got my baby back
Yo, check it out

Some days I sit, staring out the window
Watching this world pass me by
Sometimes I think there's nothing to live for
I almost break down and cry

Sometimes I think I'm crazy
I'm crazy, oh so crazy
Why am I here, am I just wasting my time?
But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes, oh no

[Chorus]
Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulder
Everyone's leanin' on me
And sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
But then she comes back to me

My baby girl [Hailie laughs] keeps gettin' older
I watch her grow up with pride
People make jokes, cuz they don't understand me
They just don't see my real side

I act like shit don't phaze me
Inside, it drives me crazy
My insecurities could eat me alive
But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes, oh no

[Chorus]

Yeah, and if I could sing I'd keep singin'
This song to my daughter
If I could hit the notes I'd blow somethin'
As long as my father
To show her how I feel about her
How proud I am that I got her
God, I'm a daddy
I'm so glad that her mom didn't want her
Now you probably get this picture from my public persona
That I'm a pistol-packin' drug-addict who bags on his mama
But I wanna just take this time now to be perfectly honest
Cuz there's a lot of shit I keep bottled that hurts deep inside
Of my soul, and just know, I grow colder the older I grow
This boulder on my shoulder gets heavy and harder to hold
And it's like the weight of the world
And I think my neck is breakin'
Should I just give up, or try to live up to these expectations?
Now look, I love my daughter more than life in itself
But I got a wife that's determined to make my life livin' hell
But I handle it well, given the circumstances I'm dealt
So many chances, man, it's too bad
Could've had someone else
But the years that I've wasted is nothin'
To the tears that I've tasted
So here's what I'm facin': 3 felonies, 6 years of probation
I've been to jail for this woman
I've been to bat for this woman
I've taken bats to people's backs
Bent over backwards for this woman
Man, I should've seen it comin'
Why'd I stick my penis up in?
Would've ripped the prinos up
If I'd've seen what she was fuckin'
But fuck it, it's over, there's no more reason to cry no more
I got my baby, baby, the only lady that I adore, Hailie
So sayonara, try tomorra, nice to know ya
My baby's traveled back to the arms of her rightful owner
And suddenly it seems
Like my shoulder blades have just shifted
And it's like the greatest gift you can get
The weight has been lifted

And now it don't feel like the world's on my shoulders
Everyone's leanin' on me
Cuz my baby knows that her daddy's a soldier
Nothin' can take her from me

Whew!
Told you I can't sing
Oh well, I tried
Hailie, remember when I said
If you ever need anything
Daddy will be right there?
Well guess what?
Daddy's here
And I ain't goin' nowhere, baby
I love you
[kiss]

Just the Two of Us (Not too emotional on Kim's part though...)

Just the two of us...
Baby just the two of us...
[Hailie]: Hey...
Da-da loves you
And I'ma always be there for you
No matter what happens
You're all I got in this world
Nobody in this world is ever gonna keep you from me
I love you

Come on, Hai-Hai, we goin' to the beach
Grab a couple of toys
And let Da-da strap you in your car seat
Where's Mama?
She's takin' a little nap in the trunk
Oh, that smell
Da-da must've runned over a skunk
Now I know what you're thinkin'
It's kinda late to go swimmin'
But you know your mama
She's one of those types of women
That do crazy things
And if she don't get her way she'll have a fit
Don't play with Da-da's toy knife, honey, let go of it
[Hailie]: No!
And don't look so upset, why you actin' bashful?
Don't you wanna help Da-da build a sandcastle?
[Hailie]: Yeah!
And Mama said she wants to show you
How far she can float
And don't worry about that little boo-boo on her throat
It's just a little scratch, it don't hurt
Her was eatin' dinner while you was sweepin'
And spilled ketchup on her shirt
Mama's messy ain't she?
We'll let her wash off in the water
And you and me can pway by ourselves can't we?

[Chorus]
Just the two of us, just the two of us
And when we ride!
Just the two of us, just the two of us
Just you and I
Just the two of us, just the two of us
And when we ride!
Just the two of us, just the two of us
Just you and I

See honey, there's a place called heaven
And a place called hell
A place called prison and a place called jail
And Da-da's probably on his way to all of 'em
Except one
Cuz Mama's got a new husband and a stepson
And you don't want a brother, do ya? Nah
Maybe when you're old enough
To understand a little better, I'll explain it to ya
But for now we'll just say Mama was real, real bad
Was bein' mean to Dad and made him real, real mad
But I still feel sad that I put her on time-out
Sit down in your chair, honey, quit tryin' to climb out
I told you it's okay Hai-Hai, want a ba-ba?
Take a night-night? Nana-boo? Goo-goo ga-ga?
Her make boo-boo ka-ka? Da-da change your diadey
Clean the baby up so her can take a nighty-nighty
Her dad'll wake her up as soon as we get to the water
'97 Bonnie and Clyde, me and my daughter

[Chorus]

Wake up, sweepy head, we're here
Before we pway,
We're gonna take Mama for a walk along the pier
Hailie, don't cry, honey, don't get the wrong idea
Mama's too sweepy to hear you screamin' in her ear
[Hailie]: Mama!
That's why you can't get her to wake, but don't worry
Da-da made a nice bed for Mama
At the bottom of the lake
Here, you wanna help Da-da
Tie a rope around this rock?
[Hailie]: Yeah
We'll tie it to her footsie
Then we'll roll her off the dock
Ready now? Here we go, on the count of free
One, two, free,  wheeeee!
There goes Mama splashin' in the water
No more fightin' with Dad, no more restrainin' order
No more step-da-da, no more new brother
Blow her kisses bye-bye, tell Mama you love her
[Hailie] [kisses] Mommy!
Now we'll go play in the sand
Build a sandcastle and junk
But first, help Da-da
With two more things out the trunk

[Chorus]

Say Goodbye Hollywood

[Chorus]
Sayin' goodbye, sayin' goodbye to Hollywood
Sayin' goodbye, sayin' goodbye to Hollywood
Sayin' goodbye, sayin' goodbye to Hollywood
Sayin' goodbye, sayin' goodbye to Hollywood...
Hollywood
Why do I feel this way?

[Verse 1]
I thought I had it all figured out, I did
I thought I was tough enough to stick it out with Kim
But I wasn't tough enough to juggle two things at once
I found myself layin' on my knees in cuffs
Which should've been a reason enough, for me to get my stuff and just leave
How come I couldn't see this shit myself, it's just me
Nobody couldn't see the shit I felt
Knowin' damn well she wasn't gonna be there when I fell, to catch me
The minute shit was heated she just bailed
i'm standin' here swingin' on like thirty people by myself
I couldn't even see the millimetere when it fell
Turned around saw Gary stashin' the heater in his belt
Saw the bouncers rush him and beat him to the ground
I just sold two million records, I don't need to go to jail
I'm not about to lose my freedom over no female
I need to slow down
Try to get my feet on solid ground, so for now i'm...

[CHORUS]

[Verse 2]
Bury my face in comic books, cause I don't want to look
At nothin', this world's too much
I've swallowed all I could
If I could swallow a bottle of tylenol I would, and end it for good
Just say goodbye to Hollywood
I probably should, these problems are piling all at once
Cause everything that bothers me, I got it bottled up
I think i'm bottomin' out
But i'm not about to give up, I gotta get up
Thank God, I got a little girl
And I'm a responsible father
So not a lot of good, I'd be to my daughter layin' in the bottom of the mud
Must be in my blood cause I don't know how I do it
All I know is I don't want to follow in the footsteps of my dad
Cause I hate him so bad
The worst fear that I had was growin' up to be like his fuckin' ass, man
If you could understand why I am the way that I am
What do I say to my fans, when I tell 'em i'm...

[CHORUS]

[Verse 3]
I don't wanna quit, but shit, I feel like this is it
For me to have this much appeal like this is sick
This is not a game, this fame, in real life this is sick
Publicity stunt my ass, conceal my fuckin' dick
Fuck the guns, i'm done, i'll never look at gats
If I scrap, i'll scrap like I ain't never whooped some ass
I love my fans
But no one ever puts a grasp on the fact i've sacrificed everything I have
I never dreamt i'd get to the level that i'm at, this is whack
This is more than I ever could of asked
everywhere I go, a hat, a sweater hood, or mask
What about math, how come I wasn't ever good at that
It's like the boy in the bubble, who never could adapt, i'm trapped
If I could go back, I never woulda rapped
I sold my soul to the devil, i'll never get it back
I just wanna leave this game with level head intact
Imagine goin' from bein' a no one to seein',
everything blow up and all you did was just grow
up emceeing
It's fuckin' crazy
Cause all I wanted was to give Hailie the life I never had
But instead I forced us to live alienated, so i'm sayin'...

[CHORUS]

[Outro]
Goodbye, goodbye Hollywood, {Goodbye},
please don't cry for me, when i'm gone for good, {this shit is not for me},
so goodbye, goodbye Hollywood,
{i'm not a fuckin' star}, please don't cry
for me, when I'm gone for good, {i'm goin' back home}...